Frame of Reference

Classes that is :p 1) Sculpture ~ I'm not a big fan because there isn't as much control as with drawing. But I believe in experiencing everything, even if you don't like it. 2) Abnormal Psychology ~ I'm thinking I get to learn about mental disorders and symptoms. Ya know, book stuff. No...no book. My instructor is one of those laid back, feet on the desk, eating a bag of chips type. Oh, and as long as you show up, you get an A. Which is fine, don't get me wrong...but I really kind of wanted to learn stuff in this class. It seems we will be watching a movie each class and discussing it. No tests, no final. And the movies include "One flew over the cookoo's nest", "Psycho", "A beautiful Mind"...etc. Yeah.... This would have been a dream come true in High School. But when you pay to learn, well, I kind of want my money's worth. 3) Spanish ~ Good Heavens! I took 2 years of spanish in High School, so some of it is coming back, but ...

I agree with the quote that things happen gradually and then suddenly. It's like little things change all the time, but you never notice, and then one day you wake up and everything has changed. Maybe even you . But if someone was to ask you, "what moment was the turning point? What got the ball rolling?", you wouldn't know...because it wasn't just one moment, it was a million moments. You just didn't notice them.

Here it is, the question of the day: Why, in made for tv monster movies, is the leading actor always from australia or england? It's a weird thing I've noticed. Probably some conspiracy....*shrug* They always have qualities of McGyver too! They can make things out of nothing and can escape from just about any situation...killer sharks, killer alligators, killer ants..you name it. Where can I find a hunky british/australian man of my own? He'd come in handy in a pinch. I might just lose sleep over this. :p So, I was inspired by the lovely guy that made the frame for me and tried to do one of my own. Let's just say..I have a looong way to go!! I snapped this after he jerked the stuffed animal out of her hands. I loved her shocked expression.

So, I woke up at like 10:30 and was wide awake. Usually on a sat. morning I can sleep until 12 or later. So that was an oddity for sure! Then I realized I had not cat food, milk, or food in general in my house...so cut to me going grocery shopping. Uggh! This guy at deviantart was nice enough to make a frame for one of my pictures. I kinda suck at borders and frames and such, so I thought I'd share! I think it's beeeUtiful (the frame!) :)

I've come to realize that I don't like the feeling of 'wanting'. Whether it's wanting a new camara, wanting a new job, wanting to be in love. That state of feeling just sucks I think. I do realize that it is the driving force behind people being motivated and actually working. You get out of bed in the morning because you want a paycheck. You don't eat that last piece of cake because you want to lose weight...I get it. That doesn't mean I have to like it!

Why no one will help me I am too dumb I am too smart They'll not understand me I am lonely They'll hate me And there is not enough time It's too hard to help me These excuses how they served me so well They've kept me safe They've kept me stuck They've kept me locked in my own cell ~Excuses-Alanis Morissette Ever have one of those days where you just don't have much to say? Then when you are quiet people think you're in a bad mood. When really, you're just being all philosophical and contemplating the meaning of life or some crap like that. So I confroted the person that wasn't talking to me. I asked her why, and if I had done anything, or did anything happen...blah blah. She said "I haven't been talking to you because you won't talk to me?" WTF?! This is where you picture me taking a couple of deep breaths and counting to like 150. Someone asked me what my plans were after I finish this semester and essentially finish school. G...

Went to the zoo today. It was like 100 degrees outside. I think between us, Holly and I drank like 2 gallons of water. We got a lot of good pictures though. Not much else to report on.

:giggle: Axel F by Crazy Frog I'm pretty sure this is a remake of an 80's song/dance hit. It's an earworm!! I expect it to be played out in the coming weeks. But it is a great friday song today. I'm glad it's friday. I have like a bajillion things to do this weekend. Not really, but I want to draw a couple of things before classes start. I also want to take a couple of pictures at different locations. It's 92 degrees at my house. I went out to water my plants on my patio and the cats ran out after me. They didn't stay out long though. Too hot. I imagine with them being black the heat is worse too. Hmm. Nexus did stay still long enough for this shot though.

I took this yesterday. I am proud of it because...Holly (my little sister) was watering the flowers/yard yesterday with the waterhose and thought it was extremely funny to spray me while I was trying to take pictures. So it's like I braved the front lines for this!. No, I'm just kidding, it wasn't nearly that dramatic. I watched Sin City. I thought it was VERY good. All artsy and well written. The ending just rocked gym socks though. That was my FAVORITE part. I don't want to give it away, but Alexis Bleidel's face expression when she hangs up the phone...gosh. Probably one of the best comic book-movie adaptations yet. I brought home some catnip toys for my two little guys last night and they had more fun playing with the plastic bag that they came in. Figures. I was always more entertained with the boxes that presents came in when I was little, I guess cats can be the same way.

Too tired to sleep...bleh. I had to take benadryl at work today because I had a reaction to my allergy shots. I know, I'm such a dork. I also had to take oral steroids, I was sweaty and dizzy. But I pulled through! Such a trooper. So anyway, I came home and slept for about an hour. I feel all sleepy but I can't sleep. Ok..I'll stop whining now! :)

Sam: "If you can't laugh at yourself, life's gonna seem a whole lot longer than you like." ~Natalie Portman: Garden State Such a good movie! I think I could quote the whole movie, but that would be kind of much. Nothing really to write about today. I think I slept through most of it. I also think that my air conditioner is broken. :( I will have to remember to do something about that tomorrow. My kitty Nexus. He fell asleep on my headphones. I thought it was too cute. :)

What else can I do but rip out my heart and give it to you, Dripping and bloody while tears run down my cheeks? Picture done in charcoal 6B and 2B. I drew this from a picture of Jordana Brewster, but I think it took on a mind of it's own and turned out very differently. Which isn't a bad thing...I don't think. The shadows on the right side of her face look a little funky. Hmmmm.

Do a little dance....get down tonight! I am SOO glad it is Friday. This week has been incredibly busy. I need to go the zoo to take pictures of some exotic and not so exotic animals. Cats and bugs just aren't cutting it anymore :) Maybe I can convince someone to brave the heat and go with me tomorrow. I'm out of ideas for drawing celebrities. Anyone have any suggestions!? Drop me a line. I'll send you a hug.

"You stand in the line just to hit a new low You're faking a smile with the coffee to go You tell me your life's been way off line You're falling to pieces everytime And I don't need no carryin' on" ~Daniel Powter - Bad Day I woke up this morning feeling tired. I kept waking up last night terrified that I had overslept only to look at the clock and realize it was 3 in the morning...and then 4:30...and then 4:57, you get the picture. This disturbed my cat greatly. Everytime I would lay back down he would pounce and meow, like "I thought you were getting up!" Do you ever feel like you didn't get the office memo and you don't really have clue as to what is going on? I also have a sneaking suspicion that I have pissed someone off, but I have no clue as to how I might have done this. I was really too tired to accomplish much of anything today, much less making someone mad. :o) I should just ask this person, but I am hoping if I pretend noth...

Storms in Oklahoma scare the bejeebes out of me! I could never live there again. This picture is where lighting struck a field and started a fire. It was crazy. Our roadtrip was very stormy! But only literally, the visit with the family went splendid. I am really anticipating the start of school. I need to be challenged because I am getting kind of bored and that is never a good thing....for anybody.

I'm not sure if it's me or everyone else... :p :begin rant: Since school is starting it seems like everyone needs things done RIGHT NOW. It's really not my problem that you waited until the VERY LAST minute to get this form filled out in order to register for school. I mean, it's a known fact that school starts in August (for most people), so I know you didn't wake up today and realize all of the sudden school is starting. :end rant: A mom on the phone : Well, I live pretty far away, can you mail me the form? Me : Sure, that would be no problem The mom : When do you think it will get here? Me : *pause* Um, I suppose whenever the mail service can deliver it. Ooo! Another rant! If you are 30+ years old, do not call your pediatrician for your shot record. Guy: I need my shot record for school Me: Sure, what's your date of birth? Guy: 196? Me: *pause* We don't have those records anymore Guy: What do you mean? What am I supposed to DO!? Me: (I told him where else...

It's times like these that I really miss my grandmother. I miss standing in her doorway. She would be reading a book and just look over at me and then raise the covers. I would smile and crawl into bed with her. Usually she would rub my ear or run her fingers through my hair while she read. I would always fall asleep before she turned the light off. I also remember, when I was little, how her and I would go for walks around dusk. We found a locust one time and she told me how they crawl out of shells that they leave behind on trees. Everytime I see one I think of our walks. I wish there was a pill you could take to go to sleep and when you woke up everything would be ok. Everything would be sorted out, smoothed over, taken care of.

Androgyny by Garbage -> I'm always like 5 years behind of "finding the cool" :( What's up with that?! Total Randomness ensues: Laundry sucks I mean laundry REALLY sucks Cats can be TOO affectionate This fact really hammers home the realization that I would not make a good mother I think I might be self-involved I think questioning that is self-involved I really like lists! :) Wait, isn't that a trait of OCD?....lemme check *runs off to check* WHEN SILENCE BECOMES EVERYTHING BUT AND FRIENDS WALK IN STRANGERS’ SHOES, TIME SLOWS AND YET MOVES BEYOND MERE COMPREHENSION, SHOULD YOU BE WORRIED? MAYBE WHEN CONFUSION MURDERS REASON AND TAKES THE CROWN TO AMAZING APPLAUSE FROM ONLOOKERS AND SIGHTSEERS, WHICH ONLY LEADS TO DREAMS BECOMING REALITY, BUT WITHOUT REASON THE DREAMS NEVER WERE, THEY SIMPLY ARE- NIGHTMARES. INSANITY STARTS TO MAKE SENSE AND ONE BROWN EYED GIRL CRIES TEARS OF SADNESS FOR WHAT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN.

I think that is how long I slept today. It could have been longer. Talk about some wild dreams! There was one where the world was getting destroyed by the ocean. Of course there was this secret installation where the important people were being taken. And of course it was my goal to break into this place. :shakes head: craziness! Here's a picture I did today. This is Lucy Diamond from D.E.B.S.