Frame of Reference

I had a total of four tables tonight. Not good news. Rumors are flying that it's down to any day now for the restaurant to close. Not surprising. They are probably losing money now by having the employees there. Although there were only 2 of us tonight. I was guaranteed a job in March though. That was comforting. It's nice to feel wanted. I actually like the people I work with, well enough (If you discount the creepy kitchen guys). Everyone is sick again. The hostess could barely talk. Speaking of, her family is moving back to Colorado because there are absolutely no jobs here. I'm sure there are jobs, say...at Wal-Mart and other places that have high turn overs. But for 'other' jobs, nada. I don't know if it's the economy, the winter season, or just a combination of both.  I can't help but feel envy for the black cat purring in my lap. He's curled up and he reaches out a paw every so often in his dreams. His back legs kick out and I can't help b...

I think today is going to be a good day. I woke up relatively early with a cramp near the back of my leg. But I stretched it out and threw open the curtains. It's a beautiful day and kind of chilly actually. I'm going out to hunt for a hoodie since my favorite one seems to have disappeared to that weird place that clothing sometimes does. Either that or my sister stole it like loose change. Just kidding. I have the day off so far and I feel strangely motivated to do things. Such a bizarre feeling to have, let me tell ya.  I'm also sitting in a patch of sunlight, with Pagles on my lap, watching the dust particles dance. They move so slowly and in all different directions. It's so beautiful. I wonder if the universe looks like that - just slowed down even more. I wonder if people look like that. I hope so.  Time to shower

I wrote this last night: Awakened feelings of thought provoking dealings A chance of fate or a fated chance of meeting Does the reason matter in the larger scale of reasoning I'm eating mac and cheese of the kraft variety. The -only- variety in my humble opinion. You can't ruin mac noodles by smothering them in velveeta or some other creamy cheese. You must lightly bathe them in cheaply processed yellow powdered cheese and then add a spoonful of ketchup. This all amounts to a tiny taste of heaven. Don't take my word for it though, try it yourself. I accept donations of all kinds for my inspired words of wisdom. Work has been steadily decreasing. I think we had a total of 15 tables tonight. Bad news. With the economy and the cooler weather, who can be blamed though? I was a hostess tonight. This basically amounted to me getting paid to sit at the bar and read Mrs. Lackey's newest Valdemar book. I was so in to it that I would have to hold back growls of frustration every ...

Ramblings Ensue: o    On Saturday a woman's tab that I had waited on ended up being 19.83. She handed me the ticket along with a twenty dollar bill and told me to keep the change like she had just handed me a hundred dollar bill and was doing me the biggest favor. I gushed my thanks to her. I really wanted to bring the change back and just set it in front of her. Pull a whole "Waiting" thing and tell her that she obviously needed it a lot more than I did. But at the end of the day it's stories like that that make you laugh.  o    I had an interview today at a Derm . It went well I think. If anyone saw Grey's Anatomy last week with the Dermatology scene, yeah...it's kinda like that for real. Without the massaging of course. The people were very friendly, the place was very zen with music playing and there was a faint smell of lotion in the air. I did have to furrow my brow as a frightening thought of dying from too much Kenny G exposure entered my head. I haven...

The drive to Tennessee was pretty uneventful, a little boring but not too bad. I made a trucker laugh because I was rocking out to Wynona Judd's "No One Else on Earth". I mean, I was singing so passionately, I was SANGING . I also was very entertained for a few miles with the semi's behind me that took turns boxing cars in. I swear to god they had a 'game' going on. I would totally do that if I were a trucker. I would RULE the road. Driving in to the state was a little bizarre. I mean, truthfully, I haven't been gone 'that' long. It seems like things have changed and things have stayed exactly the same. I wanted the leaves to be more colorful, but what can you do? Pinch mother nature's ass and tell her to get on with it? I don't think so.  I want it to feel more fall-like in Florida. It's getting there though. Very brisk in the mornings and evenings. Still hovering around 80 during the day though. Although, knowing me...I would complai...

This girl I work with asked me to sketch up a blue rose with tribal/celtic designs and the name "Tyler" above it. I've got the rose and tribal done but the lettering is killing me. I might just cheat and photoshop the name in. Save me a lot of trouble. Next up is a pug picture. I'm excited about this one. The subjects are so incredibly cute!! Also, very excited to be visiting Tennessee again. I really can't wait. It will be so good to see everyone! I work tonight and tomorrow. Thinking about just leaving tomorrow after work. We'll have to wait and see. I might try and switch shifts with someone. 

I pretty much went through the first part of the day very sleepy. We've all been busting our ass at work. This leads to waking up sore and sporting dark circles under one's eyes. Until of course you can get acclimated to such physical labor every day. It's amazing what the human body can get used to. Anyway, my point is that I was kind of glad I was hostessing. Yes, the money is less but I would get a chance to rest and not run around like a crazy person. I got to hostess for about 2 hours. The restaurant was completely full at 5:30 (we open at 4) and the wait time was about 30 minutes. My boss comes rushing up to the stand and asks, "Did you bring your apron?" Funnily enough, I did because I keep my time card in my apron. She told me that she was going to hostess because we needed to use extra tables and to get my ass to serving. She didn't actually say 'ass' though. (Catching a theme here? Wait for the big finish) The really sucky thing about going i...

Some older people are hilarious and they love, LOVE coffee. I hate coffee. (I actually love drinking coffee )  It gets cold too quick and the cup is not large enough which equals lots of refills. They are also very picky about having a 'fresh pot'. I'm just very thankful that most people can not tell the difference between decaf and caffeinated .  I think I got monkey pawed. There is a shrimp festival in Gulf Shores this weekend. This equals more people at the restaurant for sure. It's apparently the last 'big weekend' before business dies down again and they close up shop for the winter. And what do I find on the schedule? HOSTESSING! Yikes. Both days, saturday and sunday !! I didn't complain to the boss but all of the other servers were sympathizing with me. Anyway, I ended up getting a banging section last night and tonight. I sold $200 more than any of the other servers. They don't like that I get big sections or that I'm getting more money. (Wh...

Will you forever pretend to be unaware of the theft you commit Sit In a cement circle and look at what you have stolen Are you sure of what you say each day with a breathless whisper Listen As your heart screams and your soul claws at the crumbling walls Can you trust what your head tells you must be true Breathe In the frigid air as you throw your head back and gaze at the stars Know for certain without a doubt that I can see them too See Into me please and believe when I tell you...

I had to hostess last night. Everyone is leaving so the servers are having to rotate hostessing. It was pretty painful, thankfully I only had to do it for 5 hours. In between the little rushes we had I was totally dancing to the the oldies they pump through the loud speakers. I also found it highly entertaining to make people follow me on these really absurd, roundabout paths through the restaurant. Talk about a power trip!! Right now I'm expanding my music library. Pretty exciting huh? I have a lot of hours this week, thankfully. Maybe it's their way of 'making it up to me' for having to hostess.