Frame of Reference

I helped put together a store today. My legs are kind of sore from squatting so much, but it's the good kind of sore, definitely. Mindless, physical labor is just what I needed with free lunch to boot! Go Yellow Team. You can totally climb on shelves too, they will hold you! Wake up call tomorrow is 6 am! I feel like things are finally starting to roll, because... that's how I roll, when things roll.  I'm cold!

I slept for a really long time today. I lost the battle with consciousness around 2 am but my sleep after that was restless. I've been experiencing weird sensations lately. Soon after the fire I would wake up from a really deep sleep, smelling smoke. I would throw off the covers, fly out of bed with my heart beating so hard and fast that I was sure it was going to explode from my chest. This lasted for a while and then seemed to go away. I would have an 'attack' every 6 months or so and then, well, I couldn't tell you the last time I had one. But now I've had four in the past 2 weeks. I can't explain how real the smell is. Only this time it's not smoke... it's something more sweet. It's almost the smell of chocolate chip cookies but right when the bottoms are starting to burn. I wake up from a dead sleep, throw off the covers and right when I am about to fling open the door, I realize I was only dreaming. I can't smell anything anymore. I lay bac...

"I never wanted to Dance with nobody but you!" Stomach issues dictated a day of rest. So rest, I did. I sipped ginger-ale and tried to imagine eating a food that didn't make my mouth water like I was going to vomit.  I brushed my teeth and rinsed my mouth 4 times during the course of the day - and it's not over yet. I came into possession of a 50 foot cable cord. There is now cable running from one end of the house to the other, right through the living room. I think it adds character. I have three bruises of varying sizes on my right knee. Two of them are dark purple and about the size of a fingernail. The one on top of my knee is the size of my palm and brownish/green. I have no idea how I got them. I watched "A Few Good Men" this morning for well over the 20 th time.  I learned that excessive consumption of sugar free throat lozenges will cause you to have continuous and copious amounts of sludge like diarrhea. (And no, I'm not speaking from experie...

I heard today that Tennessee was graced with a few inches of snow yesterday. It figures that the day that it snows a couple of inches where I used to live, that it would be well above 60 degrees in the place I currently call home. The colder weather made it to us today though. The temperature plummeted to the high 30's. Could be worse though, could be 4 degrees. "Where are you this moment? Only in my dreams. You're missing, but you're always a heartbeat from me. I keep watching, I keep hoping, but time keeps us apart. Is there a sign I should know, is there a road I could follow? If I could be close beside you If I could be where you are If I could reach out and touch and bring you....." ~Enya -If I could be where you are- My materfamilias is partaking of Eagle like goodness and flying to them in a limo. Who would have thunk? I'm sitting in the living room listening to Imogean Heap via amazing headphones that I have such a close attraction to, I've thought...

I walked into my bedroom the other day and was greeted with Pagles curled up so incredibly cutely on my bed. He had both paws up by his face and half of his body was under the covers. I stopped and immediately cocked my head to the side and went " aawww ". Then I was viciously attacked by Mootchie who had been a statue on my T.V. until that very moment. I never even saw him!! I swear it felt like I had been thrown into the movie Jurassic Park when the Raptors hunt that man. Pagles was the bait, luring me into a false sense of security while Mootchie waited for me to get into the perfect position. I imagine his muscles were quivering with anticipation and he was probably even licking his whiskers! Tricky felines. They are the ninjas of the animal kingdom. Started a self portrait, a pug piece and drank Wild Turkey. Fun Fact? I can enunciate like NO ONE'S business when partaking of the gobble!!  Lots of new music: Revisited Garbage, said "HI" to Dragonette , D...

Golly it's frigid!! A couple of nights ago my room mates 'forgot' that they had turned the heat off, which is easy to do since it is quite comfortable during the day, however, that night I swear it got to 50 in the house! Not great sleeping weather. I'd rather be hot when I sleep, which I know a lot of people don't like. Most normal people like it to be really cold so they can snuggle under a blanket and get all cozy and warm. I'm wearing my red polo shirt, (thanks to the gift card I got over christmas), khaki pants, and brown shoes... can anybody guess where I am going to work? Actually, it's just orientation this morning, but hey, it's something. The real kicker is that I'm going to be making over a dollar more than I was at the dentist!! My hours should be from 4am until noon or 5am until 1pm, hopefully.... considering I actually keep this one!  ~.o Oh, and that picture of the jellyfish down below? Not really a jellyfish, that would be a Portugues...

Worked on a painting yesterday and actually finished it. It came from a dream that I had so I sort of just had to 'get it out'. It's a picture of the painting though, so it's not exactly a great representation, but it'll do pig. Couldn't upload it on here, connection is wonky, but it's on my deviantart page. --> Linkage to the right.  Interview tomorrow, can't wait! I also can't wait for winter to be over. It's not exactly frigid here, but I love coming in from outside and the house being cool, wearing shorts, all of that. I miss it!  

I find the feeling of not being able to explain something I can see in my head extremely frustrating. It's like trying to describe pain. For a moment I wish I could just make this person feel what I'm feeling so that they would know, because words just can't sum up the complexities. I wish I could just show them what I'm seeing instead of trying to explain it with words. I walked into the library today and a homeless man looked up from the book h e was reading to glance at me. He had the most incredibly sad eyes I have ever seen. I went to the beach and a lady was lounging in the parking area. In an actual parking spot...for the beach. I took a picture because it struck me as a very bizarre thing to do. I imagine that she could have been waiting for someone. Maybe she didn't like sand but why not then lounge in her yard? Maybe she didn't have one. Who knows? There were tons of jellyfish on the beach tonight. They were bright blue! I have never seen blue jellyfis...

It's 5pm and I have just eaten a small slice of very cold cheese and ham pizza. I scraped off the excess tomato sauce that tends to gather around the crust. I wonder if you can order a pizza with minimal sauce. I should try next time. The crust was too dry to eat. I'm wearing 2 shirts and a hoodie , with the hood up, because it's freezing as usual. I'm leaning against a white wall and watching Pagles roll around on the floor chasing invisible enemies that disappear with his attention. I'm going to the beach. I'm going to dump my thoughts into the ocean to be scrubbed raw by the salt and crashing waves.   

A part of me rebels at the idea of resolutions. We should always resolve to be 'better'. Does a specific date really have that much impact on our desires? But the other, more rational and less rebellious side of me does see it as a clean slate opportunity. So what are some of my New Year's resolutions for 2009? Drink more water - Let's face it, being dehydrated really bites. Pursue Happiness  - More complicated than one might think. Write - I do occasionally write, but I want to write more. If I don't write, my genius ideas and thoughts are lost forever, guaranteed. And that's tragic. Seek Adventure  - I am on a roll and want to keep on rolling! Draw - Again, I want to draw -more-.   Get my love on - Insert your own comment here, mine is censored.

So here it is. It didn't take long in getting here. It seems like the last half of 2008 just flew by. Funny how perspective works. The new job is kind of hellacious. I have never felt so morally bankrupt before. I understand the economy is bad and therefore money is tight. But when I start having a hand in making the expression: "The rich keep getting richer" actual reality, then we have a problem. I don't believe in 'milking people'. I know that in life we sometimes have to do things we don't necessarily like in order to make ends meet. But at what cost? Not one I'm willing to pay. So I say, keep searching and be happy, above all else!! It's all a matter of perspective anyway.