Frame of Reference

Wait for It  by Mariana Zapata. The premise of this book was a young woman who found herself raising her two nephews after her brother passed away. Give you one guess how I related to that. It was a well written book, overall. I didn't much care for the romance aspect of it, but that's just me being picky and non-hetero. I connected to the feelings of "What am I doing?" all too well. This was a weekend where I feel like I didn't really have a day off. The yard work isn't going to do itself and the boy's waking up at 8 in the morning is better than 6 in the morning, but still. I think of the weekends I could stay in bed for hours, very fondly. I wouldn't trade my hectic schedule for anything, though. Now I just need to shake off this slow motion fog that is surrounding me and get to it.

I'm mad at you because you aren't here. I'm mad because I heard your favorite song today and I couldn't catch my breath. I saw you lying in the hospital bed and I saw our mom holding your hand, willing you to come back. I'm mad because the nurse washed your hair when you were already gone but we didn't know. You left without saying goodbye and I'm so mad. I'm mad because Caiden read his first book to Nina today. He was so fucking proud and I was proud and it was a big surprise and she cried... you weren't there and you should have been. He's so fucking smart Holly and you should see it. You should also see Noah though, because he got your heart. He stole all of the creativity that you have left and he wears it all for everyone to see. He's kind and he's so happy there aren't even words to describe it. He sees the world like it's meant to be seen, not like it's meant to be survived... and you would love it. You would have sim...

"The Power of Now"  by Eckhart Tolle. This might be a bit of a cheat since I started this book a couple of weeks ago. Took me a while to finish though. I still feel the same as before, it was written very bizarrely for me. The overall message was incredible. It's going to take some time for me to properly absorb it all, maybe even a couple of re-reads.  Awesome week. Visited Ponce De Leon state park. Frigid waters but boy #2 and I did brave the cold. Memories for sure! Birthday party dinner. 

So this week's book was Happy Doomsday  by David Sosnowski. I was a bit skeptical to read this. The "about" was a bit sketchy with the whole 'teenage coming of age' story. I was honestly thinking: How many times can someone revisit this genre? It wasn't like that at all. I can't really give a synopsis without giving away too much. Is it coming of age? In a way, but that wasn't the focus of the book. I entered a world of realizations, differences, acceptances, tragedies, laugh-out-loud moments, and so much more. I found myself constantly asking, "What would I do in this situation"? or "Wow, I didn't even think about that happening in the event of an apocalypse. It was a completely enjoyable and page-turning experience. Went to beer fest with a friend. Super crowded, saw a friend of my ex. Waved and smiled, no response. Tried to duck out. Kept seeing said person... figures. No regrets. Airport friends celebrated my non-hermit status....

Having two boys is an adventure every single day, even if we never leave the house. Honestly, I never imagined my life where it is now. It hasn't stopped me from making lists: bucket lists, weekly goals, reading lists, school lists, etc. You get the idea. I feel sometimes it is the only way I can remember certain things. The fun and not-so-serious list is definitely the bucket list. It's grown by quite a lot and I love the challenge of tackling these so-called goals. I decided to start out easy, choosing one that I'm already kind of doing albeit not as often, is the reading challenge. One of my bucket list items is to read a book a week for a year. This weeks book was  By Design  by J.A. Armstrong. https://www.amazon.com/Design-J-Armstrong-ebook/dp/B00W2QDISQ Age gap was a bit weird for me. Writing was decent and the characters were well fleshed out.