Frame of Reference

I woke up pretty nervous on Tuesday. My appt . at the Dermatologist was at 8:10. I couldn't concentrate at work very much so I left a little bit early even though the office is literally across the street. You never know about traffic these days. Much to my surprise the doc was very young and extremely sweet. She was like the babysitter that I always wanted. I've gotten very adept at describing my symptoms, when they started, what I've taken, what I've had done, etc. She looked over my blood work, looked at my legs, looked at my hands...wrinkled her brow and said "Huh, very strange." I looked at her and said, "Yeah, I've heard that a couple of times." She proceeded to tell me that she wanted a biopsy. My stomach dropped as the table full of surgical instruments was wheeled in. What the hell does she need scissors for? I wondered. She was just doing a punch biopsy and showed me this pen looking thing that had a cookie cutter on the end of it. She...

The day for my tests is creeping up closer and closer. It's the day after tomorrow in fact. I'm pretty nervous, but hopefully it will give me some answers. I just don't like having this day looming over me, actually getting everything done and then having to wait for another week to get any kind of results. I've never met anyone who actually likes waiting though. I suppose it's a very common complaint. The drawings are going very slowly. I don't know why I can't just zoom through them. Such is the curse of a perfectionist. HAHA Easter turned out pretty good for me. I got to sleep in really late and woke up to bunny shaped pancakes. Don't laugh, my mom has been doing that since I was a very little kid. I was joking that if I ever actually moved away that I would have to come back for Easter just so she could make them and carry on the tradition. We also had family over and had a salmon dinner. However, instead of watching a morally good movie such as the...

Sometimes my legs don't hurt at all. It's during these times I think I've imagined everything...then I'll get a really sharp pain or cramps. Sometimes it feels like I'm getting shocked or the cramps last for so long it's hard to imagine what it feels like to NOT have them hurt. But I haven't lost all hope. I'm really keeping my fingers crossed that it's something simple, something benign..maybe it's nothing at all. I'm also hoping I'll get some of the blood work back on Monday . It's supposed to rain all weekend. Maybe that will force me to get some drawings done. I'm already past deadline and I'm nowhere close to being finished. It sucks because I'm really loving the subject matter...but I just can't focus on drawing. We've finished the kitchen though! The floors were more complicated than I ever imagined, but it was well worth it. I think they look amazing!!

I just got back from Florida yesterday. I think I really needed the time to rest and relax. I think some new perspectives were viewed and some bonds that already existed were strengthened. I saw the ocean again. It never fails to impress me. I was standing on the beach in jeans and a hoodie with the 55 degree wind blowing and women on either side of me in string bikini's sunbathing. I just had to shake my head and pull my jacket a little tighter around me. I moved up my appointment with the Neurologist . I actually went and saw her today. I was told that I am a puzzle...but that she likes challenges. This failed to inspire any confidence whatsoever. I am scheduled to have a Electromyography and a Nerve Conduction Study done later in the month, along with more bloodwork and a trip to the dermatologist . Let me explain what those two tests are, just so you will be better informed. Electromyography ( EMG ) It's a recording of the electrical activity in muscles. A tiny NEEDLE ...