Frame of Reference

Took the boys trick-or-treating. They had an AMAZING time!! Live streaming Tegan and Sara in Boston. The feelings...... Exam tomorrow.

It's mid-terms. Next week is full of exams. That means my semester is half way over. I'm not doing as well as I want to be doing. I think my focus has been on other things. That's not an excuse though. Many people can have a lot going on and still make awesome grades. I can do it too, I just need to buckle down. Get my head back in the game.

My brother-in-law got a horrible phone call. The kind of phone call that comes out of the blue and hits you in the gut, takes your breath away. The kind of call that no one wants to get but everyone has to at some point. He broke down, understandably. He gave the phone to my sister because he was so overcome with emotion. The whole situation kind of made me examine myself a little bit. What if I got a phone call like that? There is no one in this world that I trust to let go completely with, to just break down. I wouldn't be able to hand the phone over, metaphorically speaking. It wasn't always true, I did, once. It didn't work out well. I hope that it won't always hold true for the future either. I hope that one day there will be someone, but if not... I know that I will be okay holding it together by myself. Just like school being a temporary way-station, a holding place, for a bigger and better future. I hope these walls are just a temporary shield. However, when I ...

Today was a bit intense. School from 9-5. I went up to the lab to what I thought was finish my GIS lab. That was laughable. After two hours into it I come on to the last page. Which is to replicate the ENTIRE lab by downloading our own data from the internet. So basically I have to start from the beginning with all new data. I was crushed. When am I going to have the time for this? Unfortunately I can't do it at work because I do not have access to the internet. I could link to my phone data but the project I am doing would take incredible amounts of data/downloading/file transferring. SHIT. Unexpected family visit tomorrow. Two aunts for the price of one. Going to be cool to see them... I hope. Everything is already tense though and I just don't want anything added. Not right now. Mid-terms coming up soon and another GPS project I need to get started on. Also, I need to apply for Financial Aid as soon as possible and figure out this insurance issue and a letter that I've...

I think I hear trains in my sleep sometimes. Part of my job is to be aware of trains coming and going. I lose my mind occasionally and think I heart phantom trains. One derailed the other day where I work. Could have been a lot worse than what it was. It's laughable when people expect perfection out of things. We are all humans just doing the best we can. I'm hoping to spend some time with my boys today at the seafood festival. We practiced with face paint last night; Frankenstein, zombies, spiders. The littlest one doesn't much care for things on his face though. It was a particularly rough week with my uterus. We just don't get along. I'm still in shock over how fast time is moving. It's almost mid-term and I feel like I just started. I am really starting to like GIS. It's still insanely complicated to me but I feel like I'm sort of getting the hang of it. A lot of jobs out there in that field that pay really well. I also enjoy weather and climate im...