Frame of Reference

I woke up with a sore throat. I think it's allergies, but still. What a way to start the day. I went to the doctor. I have a test coming up in a couple of weeks. I killed the muscle in the bottom of my foot. Even when I'm lying down I can feel it ache. I'm full of complaints. Full of shit. Full of a lot of things. I did a couple of versions. Saw something similar in a stumble and thought I'd try it. I was kind of going for vintage. The shape of my eye looks like a bird pecking at the ground. Or a penguin on it's belly.

I wake up before 3 a.m. The world feels differently than it does during the day, or night even. I feel differently. I drive to work in the dark. I have lunch when most people are waking up. I watch the sunrise at the same time I watch planes do the same. The stars disappear and so does the person standing in front of me. So do the thousands of images I search. I climb into a hot vehicle and drive to another destination of responsibility. The sun follows me in the sky. I think that thoughts have left me. I stare ahead blindly. I hate when my brain stops and I am forced to fall back onto nothing but emotions. It's too raw for me. Too much. I think about home and turn my blinker on. I don't want to go. Either place. But I sit in a chair that swivels and numbers start dancing while I form them into pretty lines with happy periods. The volume in my headphones goes up of it's own accord. I watch peoples lips move and imagine my own dialogue. I leave and it's me following ...

I went running today with Bailey. It was easier said then done. Flowers and pee spots were way more interesting than fitness in her opinion. She's here. I think that's why. I need to exhaust myself even more than I already am. I might be taking it a little far. No rest for the wicked. Tegan and Sara released a song today. It's called CLOSER. LISTEN I think I'm in love with the 'lilt'. I said that word so much in my head that I had to look it up to make sure it was a word. I'd be really interested to see them perform this live. Wonder if they'd move around, maybe even, bounce rhythmically to the music, perchance?

I want to start by saying that I DO think it is completely self involved to want recognition. You do something because it's good. It's good for other people. I don't do things...well....I don't know. I've just been thinking a lot lately, which, we all know, is never good. I just...I'm just... I always... fin before it ever starts

You know the first thing my mother said when she saw this picture? "Wow, your nose really is crooked! I wonder if that happened when you fell off of the curb in your walker." Because I wasn't self conscious about my schnoz as it is. Oh well. You are tired, (I think) Of the always puzzle of living and doing; And so am I. Come with me, then, And we'll leave it far and far away - (Only you and I, understand!) You have played, (I think) And broke the toys you were fondest of, And are a little tired now; Tired of things that break, and - Just tired. So am I. But I come with a dream in my eyes tonight, And knock with a rose at the hopeless gate of your heart - Open to me! For I will show you the places Nobody knows, And, if you like, The perfect places of Sleep. Ah, come with me! I'll blow you that wonderful bubble, the moon, That floats forever and a day; I'll sing you that jacinth song Of the prob...

I needed this past weekend. Which, wasn't really my weekend because, technically, tomorrow is my friday, from my first job anyway. But emotionally speaking, needed!! Crazy news. The restaurant that I used to work at and only recently left has been shut down. Apparently someone bought the place and closed the doors. They didn't even give the servers or staff a warning. Just called them up today and said they were closed forever, effective immediately. Makes one wonder. I guess the world just works in mysterious ways sometimes, for some people. Mainly me, because on here, it's all about me. A gentleman informed me today that I looked like "The blonde girl from the Lindt chocolate commercial that has that tennis player in it." I raised my eyebrows and said, "Huh, I'll have to check it out." For all I knew, it was far from a compliment. After viewing it, I'm not sure what to think, really. THE COMMERCIAL But, it is very funny!! "Nope, my c...

This was my horoscope for yesterday ... Feeling tired? It's no wonder -- the pace (and the hours) you've been keeping lately are not conducive to staying alert and awake throughout the day. If you can't seem to get revved up to start your day, then sleep in a little bit longer. If you can't sleep in a bit longer, then promise yourself that you'll make time for a nice nap this weekend. They say you can't really catch up on sleep, but you need to get some more sleep in order to get back to feeling normal. It made me laugh. Unfortunately I didn't heed the advice and I am dragging right now. I seem to be in the middle of a headache storm. Its more like a tropical depression of storms. As funny and as probably inaccurate as it sounds, my headaches feel deep. Sometimes I can rub my temples or the back of my neck, but these headaches aren't on the surface. They are deep. I can't describe them any other way. I might have to resort to an energy drink to...

I have a scab in the shape of Africa on my knee. "I scraped my knees while I was praying" ~ Paramore I had a another test today. Of the literal kind. I passed. The words were only black and white. The answers were only wrong or right. People kept walking up and down the hallway. Shutting doors and whispering words.

For some reason, I don't know what that reason could be, this reminds me of myself. (I'm being sarcastic about the not knowing part.) I love this picture. :)