Frame of Reference

More experimenting. I didn't mean for it to look quite so out space like. Wanted more of an abstract tribal feel. I like it though. I think it's my favorite so far. Still going strong on the necklaces. Wouldn't you know, I HAVE sold a few. Baby steps! It's been such a whirl wind of a week or however long. I think I've lost track of days. I feel as if I could sleep for a week straight. I've loved most of it though. Some of it has been stressful or...emotional. I hate feeling helpless. I hate feeling confused and not knowing how to express myself. I hate not knowing what to do or how to do it. I hate saying the wrong things and therefore upsetting people. I hate being told harsh truths and having it hurt, even though I knew it all along. I love laughing with my family and being goofy. Memorial weekend. There are signs posted all over work that we can't take breaks between 6 and 9 and we are supposed to park in this gravel parking lot because SUMMER IS HERE. I ...

It is officially the end of the Hangout Festival Weekend. Wow, is all that I can say at the moment. This evening (Sunday) has been the most profitable for me. Probably because two servers had to leave suddenly, but still. The crowd tonight was distinctly different, in my humble opinion. It got better towards the end. I think people were starving, drunk, and a little bit desperate for water. Bailey is getting a lot of attention. This song has been on my mind a lot lately: Straightjacket by Alanis Morissette. I love her vocabulary. I love HER! Something so benign for me construed as cruelty Such a difference between who I am and who you see Conclusions you come to of me routinely incorrect I don’t know who you’re talking to with such fucking disrespect This shit’s making me crazy The way you nullify what’s in my head You say one thing do another And argue that’s not what you did Your way’s making me mental How you filter as skewed interpret I swear you won’t be happy til I am bound in a...

I've sold a couple of necklaces, much to my surprise. I always hope for the best but prepare for the worst. So I was totally prepared for not selling anything! I'm still going strong withthem though. I like pushing the limits. I want to do things outside of the norm. See what is possible and all of that. I think when things aren't really great around me, I tend to focus my energy on creative things. I've been saying that, "If my hands aren't busy doing something, then I will pull my hair out." This is very true. Especially recently. I feel like screaming or lying in bed and just crying. Of course, I also tend to feel the need to be VERY impulsive. Cutting my hair off, coloring it pink, getting pierced, tattooed, or whatever. Because at least I am in control of that. I suppose it's a good thing that I focus my energy on creating things. I think it's also a gift that I have so much patience. So I saw a very cool video online about spray painting and ...

Some more creations. I find I have tons of time to work on these at work. I hardly ever work on my necklaces at home.... unless I am in bed watching glee or weird movies on netflix.

I got it up and running but I have TONS of work to do!!! My ETSY shop

The threads roll easily in between fingers As long as they grasp with gentle pressure To force them would be asking for blood or knots, flirting with disaster. I possess patience.

Close minded people scare me. The only thing that is WORSE than close minded people? Closed minded people who have children and are teaching them to think THE EXACT SAME WAY. I usually take offense to sexist jokes. I'm all for girl power. However, there are ALWAYS exceptions and I think this video is it!! Boys being girls

I've been making necklaces for a while. I learned it mostly to keep my hands busy. The same reason my mother taught me to crochet. I really, really have to keep my hands busy or I tend to rip things apart. Literally. Paper, finger nails, cuticles, labels, etc. I mostly work with hemp, but recently I tried to wrap the hemp in floss, or embroidery thread, whatever it's called. This is what came of that little experiment! I'm going to try to upload it all to etsy. I've tried and failed at that before, but what's the harm in trying again? I'll upload that link a.s.a.p.

I want to be a camper. I do not want to just "camp" I want to BE a camper. I want to sleep in a warm sleeping bag and have bug spray on hand. I want to be outdoorsy! I would LOVE to go rafting or canoeing and camping all on the same weekend. To hear raccoons outside of the tent is crazy! But to be in a place where the rustling could be a bear... or a wolf! Camping is about company though. I can't imagine doing it alone. I want to be an expert at putting up tents and building fires. Of course, I'll have to get over my fear of the fire thing for good, but still. I think I'm sold. I also want to visit all of the zoos in all of the world. All of the safaris and all of the open wilderness. I want to "picture" it all. :)