Frame of Reference

I'm feeling better. Maybe my illness was a fluke. In my defense I do still have coughing fits. They are just really random. Work is going okay. Had a really boring meeting yesterday where the other person I work with and myself were trying to figure out software problems. The 'man' that chose the program was just interested in what it was doing for him, he wasn't that concerned with our end of things. My favorite quote from him -> "It's like I have a new toy and I don't know what all the buttons do yet." I rolled my eyes and thought to myself. 'Your toy sucks and I have no interest in playing with it.' I also asked another coworker what her 'official' title was. Her response, in complete seriousness, "At work?" I paused before replying.... "Do you have a title outside of work??" Made me laugh! :)

I told myself that I need to do everything to make as much money as possible. I think this past winter has traumatized me. I'm so afraid of not having enough, or being late on a bill, or whatever. So I've worked two jobs for two weeks now. No days off. This past weekend I've worked four 18 hour days. This morning I felt okay. I stopped at a gas station and got an energy drink because I was dragging a little bit. I went to lunch and got a book. I came back and started working and started coughing. I couldn't stop. I just felt like I was coughing constantly, which made my head start throbbing. I got sent home. I am grateful because I went straight to bed. I'm also feeling guilty because I did this to myself. I wanted to make extra money, not cause myself to lose money by getting sick. Stupid.

It's prime time flu season. A lot of people are sick. I don't feel great myself. My chest has been feeling funny. Like a tightness. Other than that, I am tip top. Bailey's mohawk is fading. I'm thinking blue or teal. Now that I have a job, my life has gotten boring. Not that it was the epitome of excitement beforehand, just seems like I don't do anything but work and come home. I'm going to chalk it up to ACCLIMATION. I'm still getting used to the new routine and all.

There are people who hate holidays. No matter what it is celebrating, there will be people not interested. I like Valentine's Day. I like love and I like celebrating that. Even if it's for a little kid or the love of your life. You don't have to give into the commercialism. It's not even about gifts. It's only about acknowledgement. That's just my opinion though.

This past weekend I shaved Bailey and gave her a purple mohawk. I think she looks adorable. Other people don't really agree, but .... that's why I do it. Today is the medical evaluation. I'm a bit nervous. I don't know why. I think I'm transferring my anxiety onto this appointment. The restaurant called. I think I am going to attempt to 2 job it. I know it turned out so well last time I attempted it.

Yesterday, Bailey and I decided to take a walk. A seven mile walk in a state park to be exact. We got lost and ended up walking over 10 miles. I'm not sure if that number is correct, but that is what it felt like! I know that when you get lost, the sanest option is to back track. We were both sweaty and tired and just wanted to find the car. I was smart enough to pack water for us both, so we were good on that front. While we were walking with out heads down, we came upon a woman. She was lost as well. She said she was going to walk with us in the hopes that I knew where I was going. I said that was alright with me. Looking back, I couldn't have made any other choice. I couldn't tell her that she had to find her own way. There is only one way out after all. However, I very quickly realized the situation I got myself into : Lady: "So, since you are my 'angel' that is saving me from being lost, I have to ask... Are you saved in the name of Jesus Christ?" ...

Well, I survived until payday. I think things are going well at my new job. I really like the self management that I am allowed. I can come and go as I please. I don't really have anyone telling me exactly what to do and I can listen to my ipod! I think that is the coolest thing. I found a radio station that we can both listen to, (soft rock), though I can tell that my co-worker would rather have silence sometimes. I just can't stand the commercials, at all. Over and over, the same commercials. I don't know how people do it. I passed my assessment with flying colors and in record time. Another thing that should weigh less on my twitching back. I have another test on Wednesday. I'm pretty confident it well go well. The only thing to worry about is interference. I had a dream about a hamster last night. I carried it everywhere. It got cancer. Started getting tumors and losing patches of hair. I couldn't figure out what to do, because I didn't want to see it suff...