Frame of Reference

An awesome and incredible family friend has experienced loss twice in as many weeks. I feel as if I'm inept at offering comfort anymore. I know that when I was experiencing the grief that comes from someone very close to you dying the sentiments of "I'm sorry. I'm praying. You're in my thoughts" just seemed inane and hollow. Those words lose meaning. Of course this is just my opinion but I feel like it's affected me trying to say something to someone else now. I try to think, "well what would I have wanted to hear then?" I don't know. A joke, something off the wall. Life is short. Holding on to shit isn't worth it. Lets just be real.

Happy birthday kid 28 today So many things I wish I could say So many moments I wish you could see So many of us wished you could have stayed Happy birthday kid 28 today 27 for always Love you Holly

A play on words. I'm not sure about the status of things. I'm trying to accept the days and not worry about the what-ifs. Trying to let go of what I can't control. Hard day coming up Sunday. In the last hurrah at school, lots of assignments due very quickly. Sad news about starting wages in my field. Yikes. Ramble-on

I can't even describe the happiness that I am experiencing. The personalities that keep changing and developing. I've said it before, it could be fleeting which makes it all the more precious. My school daze is challenging and amazing. Just got my second exam grade in Hydrology. B!!!! I'll take it. I've had dreams about failing this text specifically. Going to the professor and yelling at him and crying. I've been obsessing a bit. It's not over but it's closer to being over than not. I'm also killing my internship. Also, incredibly challenging. Birthday is coming up. Sad, not ready. Are we ever?