Frame of Reference

Yesterday was a whirlwind. 6:30 wake up call. Mall to Mall walk with about 10,000 other people for Breast Cancer Awareness. It was amazing seeing so many people dressed in pink and supporting a cause, being a part of something. It was also pretty cool to walk down davis in the middle of the street and see traffic stopped. Afterwards, saw a very cool volleyball game! I've never seen one in person before. Still makes me wince every time they hit the ball. I'm just fragile like that. Then it was into costume and off to work. I didn't go all out, just a black scorpion on my face, black lipstick, black clothes. I was trying to pull of being goth. I wasn't even planning on dressing up but was asked by my manager, so that a fellow coworker wouldn't feel so alone. I hope I didn't look like too much of a dork. Sucks to work on Halloween, just gotta say!

The trees rocked a light like a baby born new Glimpsed through glass, fleeting, passed beyond the moon, a stranger in the skies. Stars danced on ceilings and glowed artificial but couldn't dampen the child-like humming heard through the static unwavering Eyes heavy with sleep and mind made chaotic by anger laced with fear Read on pages black, not felt - assumed Numbers were kidnapped where they danced on night stands overtaken by A figure in the doorway made of white Breath inhaled sharply like knives frozen caused the dissipation of apparitions as if it existed like breathe seen Shaken

My whole life I've heard it. Now I want to rise above it. I want to reach in and rip it out. Whatever it is that makes people think that I am hiding something. Whatever it is that makes people look at me that way, think of me that way. I am not.

Skeleton crew. You never know if the last time you say goodbye to someone is really going to be the last time. It's funny how that works. Everyone saying, "Well, now what?" Ironic, the mimic. We need more rain. The little that fell just made everything dirty. I yearn for it to be washed away.

"It's not hard to turn somebody into a dream" ~ Elisa 4 tonight. Tow the line. System is clean.

I've finally finished editing all of my trip pictures. It totaled 176 keepers and about 30 I'm willing to share. Most are the same things, just different views. Not missing much. I finally got my hands on Elisa's album Heart. It's Amazing! I've also procured Linkin Park's newest. I can tell they are really trying new things. Some work for me, some don't. But I think they are a great group. Lyrics speak volumes. Progress on the drawing I've been dawdling on all summer. It's about time.

At first glance I thought that this formation looked like a camel. Upon further inspection, however, it is obviously an elephant, or ... Mammoth. It doesn't look like it in this photograph, but this arch is huge. Easily the size of a 3 story building. They called this patch of Arches National Park the Garden of Eden. Hilarious conversation that took place with my mother while we were in the car. ( I was driving.) Her: That light was so red! (As I was driving under it) Me: Yeah, but it had just turned red. Her: That doesn't matter, it's red. Me: -Silence- Me: Yeah... but it had JUST turned red. Her: Doesn't make it less red! It's a for real phobia! --> ANGROPHOBIA

One of my favorite quotes ever is from Allyson Hannigan as Willow from Buffy the Vampire Slayer: "Who Died?" - "Aaawww, who died?" Merely quoting it does it no justice however. It's all in context and tone. I think that's a big problem. Context. Things taken out of context or assumed can really hurt. Just one more shift. One more and the rush is over for the summer. I'm done mentally and emotionally. The metaphorical towel is thrown. I need a fork.

A pretty cool marker at Arches Natl. Park. Hiked down into the canyon at Mt. Zion. A cliff in Oregon on "The Day of Fog". A day is a roller coaster. Every day is a ride of emotions. I suppose that's the essence of being human. I just wish that happiness was more prevalent for everyone. I wish that connections existed and people thought differently. I know that what matters and means so much to me, isn't the same for everyone. When he grabbed my hand out of nowhere, that is a moment I will cherish forever. When I wake people up on accident, I feel horrible. When I hear about tantrums thrown over expectations, I get furious. When my giggle makes other people laugh (even if it's at me), it's a better day.

Led to the beach! Fitting for October. Coolest scary house! Astoria, Oregon. Only the Faithful I was looking at this picture, noticing the light playing on the purple "legs" when out of nowhere I see the praying mantis!! I never even knew it was there when I was taking the picture! I only wish that it's head was in focus, it looks like it was looking right at me and upside down!! Oh well, just means I'll pay more attention from now on. I remembered! I Just Wanna Be Mad

It was weird not to see crushed up pieces of sea shells. A cave we found along the coast of Oregon. The walk down was awesome, the walk back up, not so much. The fog we would drive in and out of along the coast. For the last two days I have slept more than 12 hours. I hope this can be chalked up to my stomach being "off". Maybe I had a bug and I just needed to sleep it off. I definitely reaped the consequences off over sleeping last night with horrible dreams. I was on a compound, or a military base. Something was wrong inside of me. A heart was missing. I started coughing up a dark green substance, similar to play-doh but slimy. There was scrambling from door to door, looking for a doctor, looking for help. I started throwing up violently this green substance. It was so scary because I couldn't catch my breath in between coughing and vomiting and trying to run and trying to ask these people for help. I had saliva and puke down the front of my shirt and it just kept comi...