Frame of Reference

I feel like I am approaching zombie mode. As Buffy would say, "I'm just going through the motions". Great.... now I want to hear the soundtrack again. It's been ages. Spring break has broken. It's been crazy at the restaurant. I hope I've made the requisite cash for taxes so that I can slow down. I haven't had enough time to even check. I'm thinking if I don't soon then my body will for me. But I also feel like I should take advantage of this time and make as much as I can while I can. It's a catch 22. Carpool confessional is hilarious! If nothing else is going right then I know I at least have Tegan and Sara to cheer me up. What's a great song right now? Cough Syrup done Glee style ->   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDFBnpmiIz4

I'm feeling better. Maybe my illness was a fluke. In my defense I do still have coughing fits. They are just really random. Work is going okay. Had a really boring meeting yesterday where the other person I work with and myself were trying to figure out software problems. The 'man' that chose the program was just interested in what it was doing for him, he wasn't that concerned with our end of things. My favorite quote from him -> "It's like I have a new toy and I don't know what all the buttons do yet." I rolled my eyes and thought to myself. 'Your toy sucks and I have no interest in playing with it.' I also asked another coworker what her 'official' title was. Her response, in complete seriousness, "At work?" I paused before replying.... "Do you have a title outside of work??" Made me laugh! :)

I told myself that I need to do everything to make as much money as possible. I think this past winter has traumatized me. I'm so afraid of not having enough, or being late on a bill, or whatever. So I've worked two jobs for two weeks now. No days off. This past weekend I've worked four 18 hour days. This morning I felt okay. I stopped at a gas station and got an energy drink because I was dragging a little bit. I went to lunch and got a book. I came back and started working and started coughing. I couldn't stop. I just felt like I was coughing constantly, which made my head start throbbing. I got sent home. I am grateful because I went straight to bed. I'm also feeling guilty because I did this to myself. I wanted to make extra money, not cause myself to lose money by getting sick. Stupid.

It's prime time flu season. A lot of people are sick. I don't feel great myself. My chest has been feeling funny. Like a tightness. Other than that, I am tip top. Bailey's mohawk is fading. I'm thinking blue or teal. Now that I have a job, my life has gotten boring. Not that it was the epitome of excitement beforehand, just seems like I don't do anything but work and come home. I'm going to chalk it up to ACCLIMATION. I'm still getting used to the new routine and all.

There are people who hate holidays. No matter what it is celebrating, there will be people not interested. I like Valentine's Day. I like love and I like celebrating that. Even if it's for a little kid or the love of your life. You don't have to give into the commercialism. It's not even about gifts. It's only about acknowledgement. That's just my opinion though.

This past weekend I shaved Bailey and gave her a purple mohawk. I think she looks adorable. Other people don't really agree, but .... that's why I do it. Today is the medical evaluation. I'm a bit nervous. I don't know why. I think I'm transferring my anxiety onto this appointment. The restaurant called. I think I am going to attempt to 2 job it. I know it turned out so well last time I attempted it.