I think I'm Going Nowhere

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"I think Im falling off
Into a state of regression
The expiration date
Rapidly coming up
Its leaving me behind to rank
Always move forward
Going straight will get you nowhere
There is no progress
Evolution killed it all
I found my place in nowhere"
~GreenDay~ - Jaded


Disgruntled

Yes I am. You know I think that people cling to what is comfortable because it is safe and there is some level of confidence that comes with knowing what is expected. But on the other side of that is stagnation. I believe in improving, learning from past mistakes, and really challenging yourself. If the same thing is expected of you every day, how are you supposed to get anywhere? How are you supposed to grow as a person? I really hate how jaded everyone has become!! I’m not saying that I’m different or above this. I think I have just realized my position. I am a hamster on a wheel and I’ve suddenly become aware of this. The question is, what am I going to do about it?

Comments

  1. Anonymous6:07 PM

    Let us hope that you are a bit smarter than Natalie Portman's beloved hamster, 'Jelly' in Garden state. He never did figure his way out of the wheel and we know of his untimely demise, don't we? I'm sorry tht you're finding yourself frustrated and stuck. I don't really know how to advise you at all because it seems my life is perpetually in stasis. At the same time, there are many things that HAVE progressed. Maybe you don't see it but you've grown so much. There are changes in you that I wouldn't have imagined possible. You're a tramendously strong woman. We're all here for you. I am here for you! Fight on! Fight hard! You're gonna make it wherever you go. Just snap into the mindset and anything is possible. Zebra babe!

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