Seaching for Me

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Wow. I just looked over my previous entry and so much has happened and changed since then…but then a lot of things are the same. A lot of progress has been made in the commission of the Star Wars mural. I will be starting the actual drawing of it in a few days I think. Up until now it has just been sketching. I don’t think I have ever sketched so much in my life! Characters and positions and layouts and star ships and light sabers. But it’s all coming together.
I also finished The Golden Compass! A great book for sure, thank you Heidi for recommending it. I really REALLY want a daemon now. It’s fun to imagine what people’s would be. I love Lyra’s character. She’s so strong willed and stubborn. I was surprised a little of how involved I got into the story. I couldn’t put it down when Lyra was captured and almost severed with her daemon. So of course, I’ve picked up the second book and will be starting it soon.
I’m still turning out the scarves and hats. I’ve learned to tell people that if they really want one they will just have to wait. It’s not worth spreading myself so thin and worrying so much about it or sacrificing things just so I can work with the yarn. Not fun!
I’ve also taken on another task for myself, Spirituality. I’m so tired of answering the question “Well, what do you believe?” with a shrug of the shoulders and an “I know I believe in something, I just haven’t found it yet,” reply. I want to find what I believe in. I want to study it and…..I don’t know how to explain it. This ‘thing’ is just calling me. Which is strange because the people who know me would know I’m not that ‘type’ of person. I’m a grounded person, I’m a “I have to see it to believe it” person….but at the same time I also believe anything is possible. So really, I’m just ready to KNOW!
There you go, that’s where I am at the moment.

Comments

  1. Anonymous8:17 AM

    I for one think that your search is very commendable. Even if I am not exactly spiritual myself, I always envy those who have a strong belief in anything. I've no doubt that you will find a sense of peace once you do work this out. Whatever it is that you believe is going to make you feel more grounded. Even if that means you realize, "Hmm...I don't believe in any of that." Atleast you will have a more defined sense of self which is always good.
    I'm also really glad you enjoyed the Golden Compass. I totally love this book and like you, I love Lyra's character. Still, you can't beat Mrs. Coulter either. She's such a delicious blend of evil masked by elegance and beauty. What dangerous charisma she has!

    I wish you luck on your continued success on the Star Wars project. I know you're going to kick major ass!

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  2. Anonymous7:07 PM

    Adrienne, I just wanted to tell you that the "thing" that is calling you is God. I know you're not sure of what you believe. But I know this for a fact. I will pray for you as you go on this journey. Just as I have before.

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