Am I crazy?

I've always been told that if you have enough self-awareness to ask someone if you are crazy, you're probably not. That doesn't make me feel better though. I know where the devil on the shoulder image came from. It really does feel like there is a voice whispering in your ear about things. For example, when you are ABSOLUTELY positive you put something somewhere or that you've done something. There is no question about it either, you are sure, but still, there is that voice of doubt whispering, "What if you didn't. Maybe you put it somewhere else." I hate that I can't remember things clearly either. It's happening to me A LOT. I know that stress does that to people too. You'll be driving down the street and 10 minutes will go by and you suddenly don't even remember driving or even making turns, you are just at your destination. One of my psychology teachers said it was a survival instinct for the subconscious to just take over if your mind is so full of things it can't be bothered. It's disconcerting though.
I know I mentioned in a previous post that a lot of bad things seem to happen to me and my family. I'm convinced I did something pretty bad in a past life. HAHA just kidding. But it amazes me sometimes how my view and my family's view can really make a siutation better. I don't believe in just rolling over and taking kicks to the gut, but sometimes it's not going to change anything to fall on your knees and yell at God or anything. (At least not after the first hour of falling into bad luck) I mean, eventually, you just have to look at the bigger picture. I have amazing people in my life and I'm very happy. True, I might be more wary and standoffish than most normal people, but that doesn't change the fact I am so grateful for what I have. Life is a lesson and some tests are harder than others, but I'm confident we will pass them all and be better people for it.
On to happier stuff though, I'm going out of town for a while. I hope to destress myself. It's sort of a mini reward for learning a new job, getting a raise, and FINALLY finishing all of the drawings I was working on. I feel like I could walk on clouds right now and I am getting excited about the holidays. I need to recharge my batteries though and hopefully on monday I'll be a brand new person! :)