Leave it

I have a hard time of leaving things alone, letting things just be. I lie to myself a lot. I watch myself set an issue down, walk away from it, and proclaim to the world that I am leaving it alone. But I go back. I worry it, like a sore spot on the inside of one's lip. Your tongue won't leave it alone.
I often turn it over and over like a Rubrics cube. The ironic thing is, I was never good at those. I never once solved one, ever.