Just my Imagination

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Sometimes my legs don't hurt at all. It's during these times I think I've imagined everything...then I'll get a really sharp pain or cramps. Sometimes it feels like I'm getting shocked or the cramps last for so long it's hard to imagine what it feels like to NOT have them hurt. But I haven't lost all hope. I'm really keeping my fingers crossed that it's something simple, something benign..maybe it's nothing at all. I'm also hoping I'll get some of the blood work back on Monday.
It's supposed to rain all weekend. Maybe that will force me to get some drawings done. I'm already past deadline and I'm nowhere close to being finished. It sucks because I'm really loving the subject matter...but I just can't focus on drawing.
We've finished the kitchen though! The floors were more complicated than I ever imagined, but it was well worth it. I think they look amazing!!

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  1. Anonymous4:57 PM

    Just keep in mind that every day that passes and every test they do brings you closer to teh answer you need. Also, remember that you have a tramendous support group here for you whenever you feel like you just wanna break down a little. You're a strong kiddo and we all know it but being strong doesn't mean you don't suffer and even strong people need a break from that. Turn to us! Remember I'm a phone call, email...text away! ALWAYS! ^ _^ Aside from that, congratulations on your kitchen! The pics I'e seen look FANTASTIC!!!!!! And congratulations on your beaaaautiful laptop! YOU DESERVE IT

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