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"I'm slipping again
I'm up to old tricks
Off my wagon
I have no defense
I'm wreaking havoc
Wreaking havoc and consequence

If forgiveness is understanding than I
affirm mia culpa for the millionth time
from this toppling house of cards of mine

I am beaten by my impulsiveness
by this uncanny foreshadowing of regret
'cause I'm repulsed by restriction
at least that's my excuse"

Alanis ~ Havoc

I love her lyrics. Incredibly, totally, love her lyrics.
Is it normal to feel like reaching your friday is an incredible accomplishment? Shouldn't fridays be a met with a sigh of accomplishment, anticipation for the weekend? Isn't it wrong to feel like you've fucking climbed mount Everest and should be given the keys to the city after celebrating a holiday named after you... just for making it through the work week?
I wrote my resignation. I left it on my desk after talking to HR. My coworker (unbeknown to me) handed it to the president of the company. He came and talked to me personally. Am I spineless or scared?
Just found out a coworker at my other job has had a problem with me for months. I figured it was a personal problem with her when she became distant. I even asked other people if they were meeting the same walls that I was. They confirmed. And then today I'm told it has just taken her this long to get used to "me". To come to terms with "me".

............

Well that's a great feeling.

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