Closed

-
A good day. Bittersweet.
I closed a chapter in my life. Took all of my artwork off of the walls at the Gallery. Said goodbye to a lot of friends with the promise to check in every once in a while. I am truly blessed with all of the support that I am getting for this new adventure. I am very happy!
You should have seen me putting this power point slide together. It took me an hour! I had to download software, create it, add a link, post it to this message board, and then comment on someone else's post. I feel like a dinosaur. I wanted to quit so many times, but I stuck with it and VIOLA! Spiffy too.
New addition to the house. She seems to be adjusting okay so far. Actually, much better than I thought! I was a little scared even though I know it's for the best. I'm happy to see her so happy.
I should be in bed but I'm still winding down from carrying all of the art and just letting it sink in.
Also, since I am going to be educating my brain I thought, why leave my spirit out? That being said I've also been doing a lot of reading on that. I thought I'd post some good takeaways.

  • Forget the fairytales
  • You don't find love you create love
  • Find your own happiness
  • Know what you want
  • Learn how to love
    • Pure love does not control, does not martyr, and is not codependent
    • Real love is unconditional
    • Real love has boundaries
  • Love yourself first
    • This does not mean put yourself first!
    • Needy is not attractive
  • Focus on the positive!
    • What you focus on will always expand (negative or positive)

Popular posts from this blog

Lost Girl

-
Lost girl protects what is precious to her Can you say the same for yourself sir Hidden pockets of misery and divine Islands of hope if only they could shine Lost girl pushes away heartfelt love Not deserved, bloodied and shoved Unexplainable expectations she's given A heart not beating, held broken, riven Lost girl bites back urges to cry A scream past parted lips, only a sigh Shaking inside, flying apart, unraveling Logic and reason, following, traveling Lost girl can't tread water any longer Deep breath, under, float, stronger Leave behind all that exists here Keep it safe, hidden from fear Lost girl wants to turn back, embrace Behind closed eyes, only her face Accept what's been said and done Move forwards, towards the rising sun
Read more

Losing Money

-
That's what my bosses are doing today. They make us work on Memorial Day and then question why we aren't busy. But hey, why should I care? I'm getting paid to sit here and read. It's just that sometimes I can't help feeling I'm stuck in a Saturday detention. Doesn't help that half of the employees called in 'sick' today. Maybe I'm just jealous and bitter. I did have a wonderful weekend though! We went to the lake on Saturday and couldn't have asked for better weather. Had a BBQ, soaked up some sun, went home and slept. I watched Trainspotting while I unpacked some more boxes. It was disturbing to say the least and the baby, TRAUMATIZING. Johnny Lee Miller is absolutely adorable though. On Sunday we went to the theater and saw Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End . I was a little 'iffy' about it because I had read it was over 2 1/2 hours long. The second one wasn't very good in my opinion, but I decided to give this one a ...
Read more

New Blog

-
So this is INCREDIBLY rambly...just had to get some things out! Life is.... interesting I feel..... everything One moment I feel very adult-like. I have responsibilities, a career (even if it's one I don't like). I have bills to pay and I'm budgeting my money. I make wise choices and investments. I help people with their problems and I am a shoulder to cry on. I fix things and I'm in complete control. I know how the world works and I feel comfortable with that. In between this breath and the next I'm on my ass. Things aren't like that at all. Am I just fooling myself? Is it a coping mechanism for us because we are so programed to think that way? Do we really believe we have to be in control of everything? The world is constantly changing, like the ocean. We are constantly changing. I have a childlike desire to see and experience everything. Good or bad, it doesn't matter. I want to feel pain, extreme pain along with happiness and complete joy, e...
Read more