Thoughtful Thirty-Three

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I'm getting tired of the titles. I might have to change that up soon. Seems juvenile and isn't getting anything across except keeping a running tally on entries.
Today was rough. I almost talked myself into walking out because, I rationalized, the best motivation to change my situation would be to not have a job. What is making me hesitate? What is making me stay? What am I afraid of more?
Books. Much like music, they are the most amazing escape. The vacation that I wish I could afford, the job that I wish that I had, the kick ass attitude that I believe lives inside of me somewhere. I find all of those things in books. I've read a lot this past several months/year. I've had a lot to get my mind away from.

In no particular order the books I've read in the past 10 months:
From S. M. Reine
Death's Hand
The Darkest Gate
Dark Union
From Shannon Mayer
Recurve
Breakwater
From Pippa DaCosta
Beyond the Veil
Devil May Care
Darkest Before Dawn
Drowning in the Dark
Wings of Hope
Paper Towns - John Green
Brave Enough - Cheryl Strayed
From C.L. Stone
The Academy - Thief
The Academy - Liar
From A. G. Riddle
Departure
The Atlantis Gene
The Atlantis Plague
The Atlantis World
From Heath McVea
Fallen Elements
Turn Darkly
Waking Forever
Becoming Forever
Dying Forever
Life and Other Near Death Experiences - Camille Pagan
Pale Queen Rising - A. R. Kahler
Year of Yes - Shonda Rhimes
The Vanishing Girl - Laura Thalassa
Harmony Black - Craig Schaefer

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