For a Moment

For a moment I smiled
The happiness I felt
couldn't be withheld.
For a moment I forgot
what it was like
to be on this constant cliff
I call my temporary home

Temporary but I've put up posters
Don't worry, the unframed kind
with thumbtacks in each corner

I forgot what it felt like
to have tears always at the back
of my eyes, to always hurt
For a moment

For a moment there were no sharp corners
no new love for me to trip over
no dark phones shadowing my thoughts
no empty space for my monster to run free

I held my breath and smiled
Then laughed, the kind that makes
my stomach ache in a good way
and my cheeks sore and stiff

For a moment I was free of everything
and it felt warm, because I'm always cold.
Just for a moment.

Then I woke up.