I should do this more

I had a professor remind me that writing every day is extremely beneficial. I know this, I just don’t sometimes. Whether it’s a lack of subject matter or the feelings just aren’t there, who knows these things?

I am disappointed in the results of the election. Here I am: A female, queer-friendly, environmental science major and our president supports conversion therapy, inequality for male and female pay scales, and thinks that global climate change is a ‘farce’. I do realize that there are a lot of checks and balances in place. I also realize that the senate and house are republican as well. He’s basically surrounded by nothing but ‘yes’ men and he’s proven to be a bully when he doesn’t get his way. Awesome.

The work front is getting a bit insane. I worked 50 hours last week, 56 this week. Only one day off during the week. I’m tired. I did make a 100 on an exam and a 97 on another exam. I think I am hyper focusing on school because everything else is a little…. Murky and slimy. Avoidance, what can I say? It’s easier and right now I need easy. I also need money.

Once more with feeling: I am in charge of my reality. I take 100% responsibility for the good AND the bad. I just need to get out of this “Robbing Paul to pay Peter situation” that I have found myself in, not only financially but with sleep, energy, school, and work.