Grow

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I don't think I'm the same person that I was at the beginning of the year, definitely not last year, and far removed from the girl who loved working at Jake's and driving along the water's edge after a long shift, stopping for a drink of Chimay and worried about trackers. I think we all change, a lot.
This song resonated with me and I think it works both ways. My perspective and then kind of aimed at me too....  Classic example of me reading into things, but in a way it makes life beautiful. Seeing beauty even in sadness.

I'll stay away
Don't have to face this
It's my mistake
And no one' s business
I am trying not to want to hurt her, trying not to start this up again
She's in my way
And no surprises
It' s been a day
Somehow survived it

Still I'm trying not to want to hurt her, trying not to start this up again
It's the last thing that I need right now
Someone to bring me down
I've got a rule I made up now, we moved out
No way, no girls around
There's a reason why I keep my distance
Don't think you're gonna understand
This is the last thing that I need right now

No need to stay
My choice I made it
I keep away
Don' t have to take it

 ~Diana Anaid - Last Thing

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