Some Days Run
Sometimes days run together and sometimes minutes crawl. Still having a bit of anxiety but I think I'm dealing with it better. Getting pulled in a lot of directions but it's nothing that I'm not allowing to happen. I have to get rid of this martyr complex. We are all just works in progress after all, I suppose.
I never realized how awkward I am socially. I always knew that I was quiet and shy. Holy hell though, as I am trying to socialize more it's becoming glaringly obvious just how awkward I can be.
Exhibit A:
Sitting in the guard shack my coworker and I notice two birds on the power line.
"Oh look, they are flirting!! He's trying to get her attention. How cute." I said.
"How do you know?" He asks.
"One is brown and one is red...that's how it works in nature, the male is always more colorful and usually bigger. She's stoic and he's dancing." I laugh
And I should have stopped there.... but no!!
"Except the angler fish. The female is gigantic compared to the male. The male latches onto the female and can never detach. Her body basically absorbs his until he just becomes this sac of sperm that continuously fertilizes her."
Cue the silence and stare..........
I never realized how awkward I am socially. I always knew that I was quiet and shy. Holy hell though, as I am trying to socialize more it's becoming glaringly obvious just how awkward I can be.
Exhibit A:
Sitting in the guard shack my coworker and I notice two birds on the power line.
"Oh look, they are flirting!! He's trying to get her attention. How cute." I said.
"How do you know?" He asks.
"One is brown and one is red...that's how it works in nature, the male is always more colorful and usually bigger. She's stoic and he's dancing." I laugh
And I should have stopped there.... but no!!
"Except the angler fish. The female is gigantic compared to the male. The male latches onto the female and can never detach. Her body basically absorbs his until he just becomes this sac of sperm that continuously fertilizes her."
Cue the silence and stare..........