Excused

So I got excused from Jury Duty and was able to make it to my class!! So glad I didn't email my professor about it. I'm very worried about this project that we have. It requires a lot of html programming which...let's face it, I suck at. My brain doesn't process information in code. I went to a workshop today and tried to get help but nada. I think I'm over thinking it. I'm going to back off of it for one day and tackle it on Wednesday.
I can't believe that school will be out for an entire two weeks. Whatever will I do with actual free time?? Actually the thought terrifies me. I should start making plans now.
I always wanted to skip over the small steps and just take giant leaps in things. I wanted to become the expert photographer, the expert juggler, the expert poet, the expert artist... This whole process of losing someone and rebuilding myself and falling down all of the time has taught me that it really is about the little steps. You can wake up every day and think, "Okay, this is it. I'm all better. I'm over it, let's move on!!" You might even feel that way, but it's not true. It's not true for me at least. It's the little steps that add up to the bigger things.