Betrayal

Personal things taken too far

None of my business-----I shouldn't look

Only connection, abandonment hurts

but not as much as words do

Hit -me-, kick -me-, throw your words at -me-

Opinions are free and a right we all have

Innocent bystanders don't deserve words like that

Don't take it personally, I know I shouldn't----but it is

It's because of me the words are spoken

even if they aren't about me specifically

Instinctually hurt rears it's head

sucker punch to the gut

Then anger takes notice and jaws clench

The person I care for doesn't exist

I want to scream until my face turns red

and I can't breathe

Innocent people, the story is unknown

assumptions make asses of people 

and the fire is spreading

It's ironic. I noticed a riff, some angry words were said

I sat and worried, I didn't want the friendship to end

Sure, she never liked me and has said some pretty terrible things

about me. I could and can handle that. For some reason, no matter

what she said in the past, I have a gut feeling that she has a good heart.

She genuinely cares and I thought that was worth something

So I hoped fences would be mended and ties not severed

Turns out the same person I was silently supporting

has now been included in the silent word offensive

But I don't believe in violence

I have so few people in this world that I truly care about. That I -TRULY- care about. Friends are few and far between. I feel protective of the people who give their time to get to know me. I felt okay that you had hard feelings and -mean- words. It hurt but I thought it was part of the healing process. It's therapeutic. But to include others in that is....disappointing and turns healing into malice.

Trust no longer exists and betrayal runs rampant.