Under the Radar

"And barely symphonic

But strangely ironic

Moments contained in one glance

Oh how I adored you

But now I'm ignored by you

Nowhere a tint of romance

And now it's vaguely familar

I think I remember sharing every single intimacy

It doesn't seem so strange to me that we barely entertained

Even the politest of phrases

But sometimes at night

I conjure you up in my mind"

Where You Want to Be - Darren Hayes

I don't know how I could have missed this...maybe I was just in a different place when it came out and I didn't notice. Anyway, I'm talking about the book "The Celestine Prophecy" by James Redfield. I just started it so we'll see, but I have really high hopes. It's sort of a spirituality, insight kind of book from what I gather...but with a fictional twist. I'm hoping the more educated I become on self-awareness and spirituality the more I can understand and put into words what it is I am feeling. It's like being a baby and having all of these things to say just not knowing the words.

I think I might have mild ptosis. In a lot of recent pictures one of my eyes seem more shut than the other. Most people say that they can't tell but I think they are just saying that. See what I mean?

My jaw hurts from clenching it so much. I feel like I have a wound that keeps seeping blood and I'm eventually going to bleed to death from it. I gotta get out of here. I know I've been saying that forever...is it just talk this time too?