997
So this is my 997 Blog post. Almost to 1,000. Kind of mind blowing how long that I've kept up with this. I'm more than proud. Some years I was better than others at documenting. I think it's awesome that I've seen it through, considering the many projects that get set down and never picked back up.
As many times as I've received negative feedback from this, as much problems that it's caused me... It is entirely mine. My creation and a reflection of who I am at that time. I've stayed true and that's important.
Another important thing is honest communication. I'm not about to be that girl who holds negativity inside and lets it fester and show up at inappropriate moments or turn into resentment. Because I have been that girl for a very long time. So here I am telling you that I have a problem, this is the problem, and I am going to fix it or accept it but it just might take me a little bit of time. What other people make of that is up to them. I certainly have a script in my head of how I WISH that they would react but that's not something I will ever hold anyone to ever again. I do not and I will not try to control that. I control me. I will not let the problem ruin my day or even ruin my relationship with that person.
I can get mad and angry at myself for thinking inane, stupid moments mean more than they do. I should cherish the fact that I'm a sentimental fool. It's a good quality even if it does mess with my heart. I am a poet and put more meaning into words, that I receive, than I should. Not everyone means them like I do.
I wear my heart on my sleeve and I know the pain that this causes me, crushes you. But I'm not going to change that. I feel too much and I think too much... but that is me :) and I am beautiful.
I am worth it. Someday....
Someone will see that too and fucking act on it.
As many times as I've received negative feedback from this, as much problems that it's caused me... It is entirely mine. My creation and a reflection of who I am at that time. I've stayed true and that's important.
Another important thing is honest communication. I'm not about to be that girl who holds negativity inside and lets it fester and show up at inappropriate moments or turn into resentment. Because I have been that girl for a very long time. So here I am telling you that I have a problem, this is the problem, and I am going to fix it or accept it but it just might take me a little bit of time. What other people make of that is up to them. I certainly have a script in my head of how I WISH that they would react but that's not something I will ever hold anyone to ever again. I do not and I will not try to control that. I control me. I will not let the problem ruin my day or even ruin my relationship with that person.
I can get mad and angry at myself for thinking inane, stupid moments mean more than they do. I should cherish the fact that I'm a sentimental fool. It's a good quality even if it does mess with my heart. I am a poet and put more meaning into words, that I receive, than I should. Not everyone means them like I do.
I wear my heart on my sleeve and I know the pain that this causes me, crushes you. But I'm not going to change that. I feel too much and I think too much... but that is me :) and I am beautiful.
I am worth it. Someday....
Someone will see that too and fucking act on it.