Positive One
I know that I set a goal to be positive, just have something on my mind. I don't know how, considering the incredible amount of things I have going on in school and at work. I was supposed to test today at work, but I think they moved it until tomorrow.
Back to my "thoughts"...
I've tried for a very long time to wrap my head around silence. Why people can write other people off so easily and other people can not. What makes someone cut off communication from someone they supposedly care about? How is that possible?
I've dissected it and theorized.
Does this person do it for their own benefit? It makes them feel better? Are they doing it because they no longer have any desire to talk to the other person at all? Are they, possibly, doing it for the other person? This theory makes me the angriest. How would they know what's okay for anyone else?!?
I have to believe they do it for themselves.
I can accept that better.
It's surprising to me how many times that it's happened to me by every single person that I've cared about in my entire life, whether now or in the past.
A theme that should probably be looked at further. What am I supposed to learn from those I put the most trust in, betraying that trust? Maybe to only just trust myself. To never expect anyone to truly be there. (But I am postulating with the best of intentions and a smile. This is not a sad thought, merely an educational, detached one.)
I think it's only okay if the person asks not to be talked to any more, or if you are having an argument and need to cool down. Otherwise, it's something I will never understand. Something that creates a chasm that will never be healed. Even with the people that I talk to now that have disappeared in the past, that trust will never be restored.
The positive note is that I can accept it and accept that I will never understand it.
Sometimes it feels really good to take something out of a box and give it the respect that it deserves and then put it away so that it just doesn't affect you.
Back to my "thoughts"...
I've tried for a very long time to wrap my head around silence. Why people can write other people off so easily and other people can not. What makes someone cut off communication from someone they supposedly care about? How is that possible?
I've dissected it and theorized.
Does this person do it for their own benefit? It makes them feel better? Are they doing it because they no longer have any desire to talk to the other person at all? Are they, possibly, doing it for the other person? This theory makes me the angriest. How would they know what's okay for anyone else?!?
I have to believe they do it for themselves.
I can accept that better.
It's surprising to me how many times that it's happened to me by every single person that I've cared about in my entire life, whether now or in the past.
A theme that should probably be looked at further. What am I supposed to learn from those I put the most trust in, betraying that trust? Maybe to only just trust myself. To never expect anyone to truly be there. (But I am postulating with the best of intentions and a smile. This is not a sad thought, merely an educational, detached one.)
I think it's only okay if the person asks not to be talked to any more, or if you are having an argument and need to cool down. Otherwise, it's something I will never understand. Something that creates a chasm that will never be healed. Even with the people that I talk to now that have disappeared in the past, that trust will never be restored.
The positive note is that I can accept it and accept that I will never understand it.
Sometimes it feels really good to take something out of a box and give it the respect that it deserves and then put it away so that it just doesn't affect you.