Dealings

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I've been in my head a lot today.
I keep trying to tell myself that anger is a form of healing. Maybe it's necessary. But lashing out isn't. 


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  1. Inverseffect7:20 PM

    You're right. Lashing out is not a productive form of healing. It applies to yourself as well. Cutting yourself is not the only way to force yourself to feel when you feel numb. Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose. You still have alot to lose. Be strong for yourself.

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