A Baker's dozen

Today was a little bizarre for me if I am being honest. I slept amazingly well, I woke up and things were done to the house, I spent a wonderful day with the boys. It's almost as if I was having an out of body experience though. Almost as if I was just watching all of it. My sister pissed me off which is making me second guess everything. Sibling have a knack for that, though, don't they? They know the buttons. They feign the ignorance. They set up arguments that you have no chance of winning. I chose not to play and just walked away. I think today was my brain's way of saving me. Just checking out and reveling in the no stress. I did have moments of wanting to leave. I don't want to run away though. I know that logically I can. It's possible. Anything is possible. Well, not anything.
My step dad was asking about my classes today. I told him that I will be lucky to pass chemistry, that it's not looking good. He said, in completely seriousness, "Adrienne, you've never failed at anything."

Yeah.... I was.. I don't... I wanted to laugh and respond with, "You have no idea the many things that I am a complete failure at." Relationships, the military, being a good sister...direction, art... the list goes on. But you know what? When I get to thinking about it.... I joined the military one year before 9/11. Maybe I wasn't meant to go to war. Maybe I would have died if I had stayed in. Maybe a lot of things happen for a reason.

I want to start a new project that I saw a couple of days ago. This woman started a project called 365: grateful. I attempted a 365 project before, taking self portraits and I was unable to finish it.

I wanted to really try this one. As a photographer and a deep thinker. So this is Day 1: I'm grateful for these two tiny human beings.